progress progress progress!

[elisem]

Hard stuff:

still ow ow ow a lot

Progress:

not as bad as before


Frustrating stuff:

still behind the curve on being able to walk again

Progress:

did more than forty feet without the cane today in PT, have been using the cane only part-time around the house, and am cleared to walk (inside) without it as long as I don't get wobbly. strength DEFINITELY returning! woo! (still need to use walker outside the house though, especially since if the fibro kicks in and the arthritis gnaws at me, i sometimes need to sit, and having the little seat in the walker is Very Useful -- i thank the Juan for pushing me to get the one with the seat instead of the more basic model; he sees people using them on his bus commute, and advised me on which ones seemed to be the smooth-operating ones. haven't tried the bus yet, though. gonna achieve the five blocks to Dairy Queen first, i think. one milestone at a time.)


Frustrating stuff:

feel like i am missing everything and that the world has no need for me and doesn't even notice (yep, extreme bouts of self-pity; i deal with helplessness very poorly, alas)

Good stuff:

feeling tremendously creative just now. so much to do, and i mean that in a good way. plus some difficult stuff got resolved in a positive direction, so whew. and there are possible upcoming good things, about which more later.


progress yay!

I'm off The Precautions in three more weeks....

more progress

[elisem]

forgot to mention this.

Uncomfortable To Say The Least, Earlier:

the first time i used the leg press machine, it was set at the farthest out (least leg-bending) setting, and i still had a really nasty panic attack when i got on the machine and started doing any leg-bending. that setting was d.

Progress:

i asked to pause but not to stop. (i have a strong willingness to continue if i can first have a little break to get myself reassembled. i hate stopping and walking away from it unless i really need to. so i have to remind the PT people i want a pause, not to quit for the day) i was able to let the panic ebb a little, enough to do some work there at setting d.

Today's huge progress:

today's setting was c. that's huge. and on top of that, i managed to let it press in almost to the limit on that setting.

b, i got my sights on you. so there.